Ee Eng

First meeting with Kiyomi, Grace & Joyce!

2011-08-25T00:57:00.004+08:00

So the above picture is with the blogger, Kiyomi @ kiyomilim.com

She's damn cute and friendly, she's like my brother Cynthia very nice and socialble. Or is it because I'm the one that is sociable? < HAHAHA, praise myself. >
I think so too, really! Cuz I arrive late and I felt awkward. To clear the awkward atmosphere at that moment, I started to talk. :B
Works well though!

The best about me, is I can communicate well! I want to say Grace is very pretty. Do you believe me? No? I know right. So I got evidence! Look for yourself!! *Scream for Grace*

TADAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH!

A picture of me & Grace. How is it? Do you believe in my eyesight now? Hehe!

Grace is demure. Look at the cute ribbon tied at her hair? And the cute fairy like dress?! With her cute heels that you can't see. I saw! :D
Grace and Kiyomi trying kelly smile as I suggested it. Cuz I find it real cute. BUT...I wouldn't be able to turn out nice. For both of them, it turns out nice!

A group picture of the FOUR of us!

We met up for awhile, but nevertheless it's nice just introducing ourselves and taking pictures spending those times wisely.

Brother Cynthia?! She's the one that motivates me to blog. Therefore, I'm posting now. And I promised Grace I'd blog tonight.

Will be meeting Grace after her O's. Wish her luck and pass with flying colors! You can do it!

Dedicated to brother Cynthia

2011-08-23T04:15:00.011+08:00

So this blog post is dedicated to Cynthia bro. :)
If not for her, I wouldn't be blogging le. I find it such a bore as I've got nothing to blog about. Just working and meeting boyfriend and quarrel with bf.
So yes, look at the pictures I upload, its Cynthia. Seriously I find her very nice. Even though we don't know each other for long. But I feel that she's very nice. Although from the start I look at her picture I find her 'fierce' too like everybody did. After getting to know her at the Fashion hooks event, I'm really surprised! I didn't expect her to be so nice. Hehe. ( brother, but you're nice.) She talked to me and take pictures with me and smile also. Most importantly I feel in finding a friend is to be able to click! Oh well, her sense of humor is almost as high as me. :B
Bro, I wish to hang out with you more! See ya later ok?!

Happy 8 months, dear!

2011-07-08T02:09:00.004+08:00

Dear happy 8 months together!

Tan sheng, Cheng wai & Me!

Once again, happy 8 months together my dear smelly boy! You're the best ever that I came across. Same old saying, that is you can handle my absurd attitude. (^.^)v
I believe nobody would be as understanding as you. Nevertheless, you're one of a kind. You're funny at times, irritating and f'ck up at times... like you said always 'even though I ... you also still want me ma.' *thick skin much* ( but true, I still want you no matter what. )
And I promised to change my way of talking, to stop you from thinking I'm being angry.

I LOVE YOU, DANIEL!

My precious hair!

2011-07-01T04:33:00.005+08:00

I like my current hair color, what about you?
I realise each time I step in salon, my hair eventually get shorter. -__-"
I must give my hair a break! Stop giving it more stress.
Thanks, my Airen for accompany me all the way when I was dying my hair. My hairstylist really is a joker and patient in handling my hair. As my hair is thick and dry. While keep me not being boring, he talk to me. Cuz halfway through nana is too engross in her game in her phone. Don't know what game noh! :@
I said something like, "Nobody talk to me, I feel very bored."
Hairstylist say, "you feel like talking? You talk luh."
I'm so happy with his service! :)
This coming sunday is a day I somehow longed for! kinda scared.

Lee Poh Yin

2011-06-23T01:37:00.003+08:00

Yesterday I went out with hubby & Georgina to Jurong east to swim. So enjoy de! It's been so long since I last swim. I'm very satisfied to meet my 2 favourite girls. I enjoy every moment with my hubby. She always never forget about me. Always wanting to let me know I'm the one and only girl on her mind. No matter what she will think of me, guide me as usual like when I'm in hostel. Without her, I guess I wouldn't be out here as a free girl too. When CCY left me, she has been there for me. Make everyday of my life in hostel a memorable one. I always say that it'll be hard to find someone as special as CCY. But I did... And this time I will try to cherish her more than before. Sometimes I really wish just to live in a little house alone with hubby. With her around, nothing would be bored. We could chat hours... Seeing her beautiful smile really lights me up. She's like the little sunshine imprinted on my mind. The little light that kept me continuing loving even though I'm afraid of losing like the past. I really love hanging out with her. She gave me a sense of security like my friend, my best friend, my mum. Obviously not my grandma. :B
In the night, I ask myself...
Whether did I neglect her in some ways of my actions/sayings?
Whether did I make her day everyday out with her?
Whether did I make her sad?
I'm still the old one, thinking alot. But it's really cuz I'm scared of losing someone important to me.
Hubby, I Love You.

Girls being born naive ?

2011-06-17T22:16:00.003+08:00

I saw girls saying...
I wish I got a boyfriend that will joke with me all day long...
I wish I have a boyfriend whom understands me like no one else do..
I wish I have a boyfriend that always stay by my side..
You want a boyfriend as a entertainer? Or do you want your boyfriend to be a mind reader? Or a lackey that follow everywhere you go?

Naive!

I love you Ee Eng, so much

2011-06-15T02:35:00.002+08:00

Looking at this blog title, must be thinking why would I put such title. It's my brother whom thought of this title for me. After I gave thought, I find it that it's actually quite a nice title. I would like to share what I love about myself then.
-I love myself when I know I can be as truthful as I can to the person I love.
-I love myself for being able to handle some issues all alone by myself.
-I love myself for being the only one whom can bring a smile on my face.
-I love myself having an influential laughter than could make people around laugh.
-I love myself for making friends that's nice.
-I love myself where I am born in this house of mine.
-I love myself for having a pair of beautiful eyes of mine like my mother.
-I love myself for trying my best to be filial to my grandma now.
-I love myself for being able to love people.
-I love myself for who I am.
-I love myself because it's me, Ee Eng.
Everybody is born in a unique way.
I love you Ee Eng, so much.

Irony!

2011-06-13T03:18:00.002+08:00

When I heard of this 2 words, "forever" and "promises". I wouldn't even give a single thought of believing it, really. Most of the time, when a person tried to convince you by saying "I promised". Put it in a situation where you just agree to what that person wanted. Would the person add on at the end of the conversation with "I promised".? Arg, fuck. The person wouldn't. Cuz the person got what they want. This is reality. A person will go through anything.. Just to get what they WANT. They don't mind saying lies, foolish acts for you. Cuz it's like they're on a mission on getting you. I find it damn stupid, and admire them at the same time. They did their utmost best in presenting their foolishness to get what they want. If they didn't, they turn into another person. Cool much. I don't hate this kind of person. Just that I always believe in 2nd chance given. So I'd still be friends with them.
So "forever". What is "forever"? Thru eternity? Ok, that's enough. If you can attain longevity, till than, tell me about your "forever". If you don't. Kindly shut up and suck your bloody thumb!

Missing a part of me

2011-06-11T11:04:00.002+08:00

I slept late and woke up early. When I wake up it felt as if I lost the whole me. I felt so empty within my heart and soul. Even though I'm missing you dearly, I wouldn't go and pester you. No longer the little girl that want to seek your attention. My house is in the dark right now, all lights are switch off. Heavy rain pouring down outside my window pane. Me smoking away to burn the memories I have with you. It just can't seem to be burn so easily. I kept on lighting up a cig after another. Whatever I have in my mind can't be put into words. Sometimes I wish I'm not so sensitive and observant towards the things you do, but I can't. I care about you so much, maybe too much I guess. Every night I ask myself, what makes me holding on to you so dearly. I don't know the answer still. Do you feel the same like I feel towards you? I doubt so. I like to assume, most of the times my assumption went wrong and I regret. I don't blame myself for doing so. Thunder strikes now, I'm afraid. How I wish...

* A *

2011-06-10T22:11:00.002+08:00

If you come to my blog, you will know I am referring to you. Firstly, I ask of you to treat the one that love you well. The person whom kept quiet knowing what you did might be hurting inside. It's been quite awhile since I last met you. I wonder how long we didn't meet. But it should be long. I don't know what you've been doing and you told me you're fine. So, I took your words and didn't bother much about you. What's bothering me is the text you randomly sent telling me how you feel. It's getting more and more ridiculous. But all along you've been with me, I'm really happy. I've got a friend to talk to, hang out with and laugh with. Most importantly, you care for me a lot a lot. But now, since there's someone you should care about more than me. You should know your limits and show that person concern more than towards me now. No matter how good we are in the past. It will always be kept as a memory. I hope you will last long with the person whom love you now and cherish that person. You might not come across another one that love you as much now. But I will still be here for you. When you're feeling down and upset. You can just look up for me and talk to me about it. Or when you're free, we can always meet up and have "dou hua". :)

Dances of love~

2011-06-09T16:38:00.003+08:00

3 days ago, I had an Lp in AuditionSEA and got a Caladium ring.
Yesterday midnight I got Violet ring.
I'm really happy I got this dream ring of mine, 'Violet'.
However getting this ring is not easy.
Couple battle party & Couple battle party & Couple battle party.
It's so tiring even though we're collecting jar of hearts in a short period of time.
My friend asked me what's the use of the ring..
And I answered, nothing. It's not the usage of the ring that I'm rushing for ring. It's the beauty in it's ring that I am rushing.

Rosemary

I'm coming for you.

Happy 7 months baby!

2011-06-07T00:45:00.003+08:00

Happy 7 months together bby!
Even though so much things happened, after all we're still back together. I really feel so happy today. Even though I didn't put on any make up. But this pic is so beautiful as I'm really feeling very happy within my heart. I really thank you for being there with me all this 7 months although sometimes you suck a big time. `-`

Pack Of Lies

2011-05-27T03:22:00.002+08:00

I have got a very chubby chubby fat cheek! :$

I really hate LIARS a lot.
I've always thought what's there to lie about?
Why don't just a person say things that's true and not trying to hide something up and cover it with lies. Once you lie to me, everything you say would become a lie to me. It sucks to keep doubting what a person says. It's not easy to trust someone that has once lied. Be it a white lie that's of benefit of others or black lies. It still ends with a lie, so I consider it as lie.
It's hard to believe once I caught you lying.

Happy birthday, Ee Eng. v

2011-05-05T00:49:00.009+08:00

Happy birthday to Ee Eng !

This is an update on what happened on my birthday past 2 days ago. I woke up in the morning 9+ because my grandma scream for me to wake up as my aunty gave me a red packet as my birthday present. So, I called my aunty up and thank her for the red packet. I'm very excited for my birthday okay! Cuz my grandma is preparing dinner for me and my friends. *v*
I spent 2 years of my birthday in hostel. This year I'm spending it outside, I'm glad.
It's my birthday, so it's my pay, nevertheless... MY OFF DAY!
Tell me, tell me, am I a lucky girl this year. Definitely okay! No doubt!
I went to meet my beloved ppk at his house and went over to Amk hub to meet my mum & dad! The four of us had late lunch together. Guess what we ate?

Tadaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah

This belong to Daddy!

Mummy!

Mine!

Ppk's!
Complainnnnnnnnnnnnnn!
Know what he ordered? P O R K ! :@

Although it's my birthday, but I'm giving the treat. Know why? Mother's day is arriving! I've got nothing to give me mum. So, treat her a meal will do! \(^.^)/

After eating went to play maxtune? I supposed. I've forgotten what I did as I fell down and was too shock what happened after that. I was like a humpty dumpty that had a great fall and there's a blue black at my backside. Embarassing moment. I thought I was about to die from the shock! Nevermind, so I will not elaborate the part whereby kids playing maxtune trying to show off how fierce they can be when they're still losing after acting.
So went to pick hubby after that, rushing for time! Was very angry.. But after I met hubby...

=(^v^)=

I still turn back my happy self even though I'm angry. Sheesh. My phone was flat at her school. She brought me chocolate brownie! DELICIOUS! Nice! Hubby and all sang birthday song for me. Hehehehe. Hubby voice so cute okay! Girly girly de.
Okay, I'm very tired to say what happen after that, we just rushed over to my house and eat!
Took pictures with everybody & see how lovely my hubby and my brother, Boon ah!

Look! How sweet is the both of them?
Hehe, I envy both of them alot. How they manage to understand each other. :)
Had some talking session with hubby in my room and we took pictures once my phone got battery!

I only upload one of the pix that we took in the room! *tired*

Boon ah! My younger brother!

Ppk & me!

What we look like? HAHAHA!

Last but not least, happy birthday to myself. I'm happy.
Thank you, piggy!

My favourite picture of all !

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Hubby took this for me! Cool?

Dearest ~

2011-05-01T00:23:00.003+08:00

It's been so long since I last post on my blog. Busy working and having fun. I find working in a lan shop is quite a fun job? BUT, I'm poor at my maths? I often give the wrong change or charge wrongly for different things. *v*
It's okay, what matters is I enjoy right! I'm like having shortage of money at the end of every shift, it's kinda saddening too? Hehe. Anyway, I'm fine! Really fine. Everyday I'm either working or having fun. I believe I've gain much weight, although I've been trying to put on a diet. I've a problem, my stomach always feel bloated. I will either feel damn hungry at a very moment. When I bought my food, I open up.. I will feel bloated again. Seriously! WHAT's WRONG?! Damn, I don't care okay. As long as I can bear with it, will do. Recently I've been quarreling with my beloved boyfriend too. But everything turns out fine at the end of the day. What does it mean? It means our love is strong and we can overcome any obstacles. I know right! :DD
Anyway, my birthday is arriving in 2 days time, the reason I'm posting today is for this special someone. It's been so long last I heard from you. I do miss you, but nobody know. Dearest, you know I'm addressing you. If you've been here, I hope to tell you that I really wish that on my birthday.. you'll be here to celebrate with me. I miss you dearly as much as before. I can't forget the memories with you although it's just 5 months being together with you. It's been too sweet and everyday of my life at that point of time, you've play a part in it. You follow me through much obstacles. When we didn't meet, out heart cling onto each other as one. Not forgetting about each other. I treasured you once, and always. I'm not expecting you to be back with me. I wish.... hoping... Too little too much, to have you with me during my birthday. Dearest, my best friend. I wanna spend my first year birthday outside with you and my hubby and the same time. You know you made me a strong one, I'm not as easily getting push down like the past. Cuz the impact you left for me can never be compared. I love you being once in my life. Knowing that you're doing fine, I'm more than glad. I hope you'll see this too. It will mark a higher percentage of me seeing you on my birthday. C C Y .

Affordable,

2011-03-24T03:12:00.002+08:00

I hope I'd be able to afford.
Sadly, I don't and never will.

Four months ago ~

2011-03-20T23:11:00.003+08:00

This boy is Daniel Loh Tian Shun, is my one and only.
It's been four months that we got together. I'm glad we're still counting on. Four months being together, but we're turning back the times when we first started of. Which is four months ago.. It's not that as time passes, we're not happy anymore. But, in some prospects we're getting worst than before. Nevertheless, it's my attitude that I still didn't change. No matter how bad my attitude is, he will still give in to me. Sometimes things which I've gone overboard he would still grit on his teeth and give in to me. Each and everytime I showed my attitude, I also know that I'm really giving a test on his patience. I know every patience has it's limit. But I just come help to stop my attitude, I will only realize it's my fault after every quarrel. And I will realize my reasonings are absurd and nonsensical enough. I just wanted to win in situations. I suggested the idea of turning back to four months ago, just so that my attitude is not that bad. And he wouldn't flare up so easily although he always give in to me. (-_-)

One sided love,

2011-03-14T01:18:00.002+08:00

First question came to my mind, is it worthy to just love someone that's not even yours?

From my point of view, I feel that it's not really worthy. Cuz you'll never know whether the person will be yours.

-The End-

You are the cutest boyfriend i ever had

2011-03-09T23:35:00.003+08:00

Well i got a very cute little boyfriend! how cute? very cute!

Why am I saying him cute? cause he is the one posting everything and even blogging my blog now!

hohohohohhohohehehehehehehahahahhahahas!

seee i hacked into your account with your permission! do you love Daniel? Of cause I love! I love him damn damn much!! boyfriend love you too my dear (:

signing off now!

Ciaos~~~

Bigcowcow's

Fatigue

2011-03-03T01:26:00.003+08:00

Thanks to Skye, Edwin, Shannelle & Jinda today, without them I might have been dozing off during working hours. I really enjoyed myself taking pictures with my girls. Nevertheless, it's a long day of work for me today. I'm extremely tired. I felt so terrible during working hours as I'm really worried for someone. It's so funny that when someone told me that he wanted to sleep, he went facebook and post status. I'm not sure whether he knows that my status were referring to him, but he liked it. I didn't want to text him, didn't want to kick up a fuss over 'he didn't went to sleep, and went to post status on facebook.' seems so stupid and idiotic. Do you know that I'm very worried for you? from the way you do things, I know you don't. When I care for you, you don't give a damn. When I don't, you said that I didn't show. What am I suppose to do, I A M N O T H A P P Y .

Let me off

2011-02-28T00:52:00.000+08:00

I hope you can just let me off. =.=

Worried Sick

2011-02-24T01:56:00.003+08:00

I need an example of a good girlfriend! So, I can learn to be one?
Seriously, I don't know how to be a good girlfriend. I always say that I love my boyfriend, but my boyfriend don't feel the love from me. I don't know how to show concern, it seems like I don't care even if I do. I trying, trying to be expressive of all the things I do. But it seems like it's getting worst. We don't even act like a couple now. I feel so helpless? I need some guidance? Stop the stuff of talking it out, cuz I will only end up quarreling. I just need to learn how to show concern. I'm having mix feeling inside me now. I feel helpless of all. When did I become such a noob in expressing my love? In the past, I would just express to any of my love one. But now, something is stopping me to express even if I love? I wanna learn to express thru words and action. I don't want to claim that I love but nobody feels it.

All comes to goodbye

2011-02-23T01:37:00.003+08:00

All good things will soon come to an end. So I will cherish everything now before it's gone.
I hate to lose the things/ people I love. But I won't hold them back if they want to leave.
I'm currently working as part timer at sky lan located at Bendemeer!
Please come over and visit me, I'm bored sitting there alone. ^-^
I have 2 dates to fulfill currently.
On Thursday noon, I will have pepper lunch with Skye.
Evening, I will be meeting Vanessa!
She's a very cute girl, I love to hang out with her.

I want you to take over control ~ !

I'm sorry

2011-02-18T22:49:00.002+08:00

I'm really sorry for giving you attitude when you're not even in the mood for the entire day.
When you told me that 'Who started to give attitude when I'm not even happy for the entire day'.
I felt so guilty and such a failure. I should be the one cheering you up when you're not in the mood. I'm really really sorry. i didn't mean to do this, really. I can't bring myself to apologize to you as I'm too guilty to do so. Please forgive for my wrong doing.

Idiotic !

2011-02-17T05:54:00.002+08:00

I'm not schooling, yet I'm jobless too.
All I know is to take money from my grandma and going out all day long.
This is real bad, I should be working since I'm not studying.
I will not be lazy and look for a job after one week!

Hantaro!

2011-02-16T23:01:00.004+08:00

Greatest Disappointment!

2011-02-14T04:15:00.002+08:00

You're not as good as I've figured you out to be!
I'm disappointed you. Once again, still a hypocrite!
Nobody really care! You're just like a my any other friend. The same as anybody! Fuck Valentine, fuck everyday! Shit!

IS IT TRUE?!?

2011-02-11T05:21:00.002+08:00

I'm always the one showing attitude. yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa right!
Firstly, I've got a foul attitude that cannot be change.
This is my personality.
I can't change, it is PERSONALITY.
Even if I would to change, it would not be myself anymore.
I don't wish to change myself into someone that's not of myself.
I want to be I, me & just myself.
It's not that I can't change the foul attitude of mine. So what if I would to change?!
It wouldn't be me anymore isn't it?
I believe that a person whom truly love the other party wouldn't care much about how good or how bad the person is, but love the way they are.
If you don't love the inner self of me, STOP all those shit saying about how much you're loving me or so. Makes me feel sick and I dislike it a lot, a lot!
I won't be fake towards you, trying to show only the nice part of me. It seems so stupid to do so.
I take note of every single thing you say, sometimes it just discriminate me for some reason.
Please learn to spare a thought for my feelings.
Take note of what you say, like how I would take note of what you've said.

Depress ~

2011-01-29T02:45:00.002+08:00

I miss you so much.
I am so depress about not not meeting you up.
But I guess to you, it's okay. No big fuck about it?
It's a big fuck to me. I'm really sad about it.

It's best to be friends ~

2011-01-27T03:51:00.003+08:00

I will learn to live on my own and not depend on anybody.
I want to be independent!

I should know how to differentiate now which is good, which is bad.
I need somebody whom understand and empathize with me, give me suggestions that will be of help. Not giving me suggestions that I'd have thought off.
I came home, and a slip of paper was placed at the table, the hand writing on the paper looks familiar. I took it, and read it....

It was you...

Suddenly, tears in my eyes and I....

I don't mind ~

2011-01-26T02:15:00.002+08:00

All I wanted was to meet you and spend some time with you.
Although I waited for quite long and I got angry about it, but it's okay.
Cuz I understand what's the reason that causes you to be late.
Not your fault my girl. I want to see you soon okay. You're not useless.
I miss you, I want to have more time with you. ^.^

AhLian!

2011-01-26T00:53:00.003+08:00

Hello, I'm a Ahlian when I talk! ^.^
Should change the way I talk! Hehe.
Today went out with MeiFeng and HuiTing, my BROTHEEEEEEEEERS!
So happy, guess what?!
The bloody clothes that caught my bloody eyes is caught in my bloody hands! AWESOME?!?!
Yes, Awesome!
And I really got a cute boyfriend!?!?! Bugis street so big?!?! Without asking which part I am, he can find me!
After that went Sheesha? HAHA!
I don't like that, but I take 2 puff before I left.
Yeeehooooyay!

Unlucky!

2011-01-25T05:44:00.003+08:00

Such a unlucky yet fruitful day?!?!
First, before I got out of my house I quarreled with my grandma.
Went to meet... you guess???
I am super uber duper unlucky.
I lost my ez-link card?!?!?!?!
How suay can that be huh.
Nevermind, I don't care also ~
Met Cheng Wai, my 'boyfriend'.
So long never see him already! HAPPY! ^.^
Ali baba Aladdin....
We went to Bugis.
I saw this bloody top caught my bloody eyes and cause my bloody brain to want it and I bloody really want it.
I will get it by hook or by crook okay! :@
Abcdef-u-c-k.
I like to look at handsome boys okay.
So whatever I choose will never be wrong, it might not be nice cuz it doesn't suit you not because of my taste! Urgh. So dear, whatever I choose for you is nice, nice, nicest! :DD

Anybody have an idea how does shit taste like?!?!?!
I'm really curious!

Common Responses!

2011-01-24T02:22:00.002+08:00

I don't like sharing my problems, nobody can really solve it and started giving me responses that I'd have expected. When I said I have problems, people usually asked me to share and there after telling me some solutions that I'd have thought off and end with a "cheer up, I'll be there for you."
Were you really be there when I encountered problem? No, cuz usually people say "I'll be here, I'm just 8 didgits AWAY ~". It's still being AWAY right? But did that solve my problem? N.O.
And with the "I understand your situation." Do you really understand?
For example, we both got caught for smoking in school for the same thing. But we're both from different school, we have different teachers handling this offence. But in the end, do we both get the same consequences for the same offence? Most of the time N.O. Cuz different school handle things differently. So we're IN THE SAME SITUATION, but we get different things for the end result.
That makes it that you don't understand the situation.
I just know that as long as when the sun rises and I'm still alive, I will and definitely make a difference in my life and make it a legend. :)

Fly ~

2011-01-22T02:25:00.002+08:00

My leg is feeling so itchy now, I'm serious and not joking.

Now I give a thought about it, I realise actually I don't even have A best friend.
I'm not sad about it, seriously.
All I get was still being alone no matter how hard I tried to be a good friend.
It doesn't bother me much either.
It came to my mind, what are best friend for?
Will they spend the rest of their life?
Most of the time, N.O > NO.
I don't need & don't wish to have A B.E.S.T F.R.I.E.N.D.
I just wish to have friends that does not need to have any commitment.
I can leave them by not feeling sad~
I live to be a happy girl cuz I am suppose to be one.

Love ^^ :*

2011-01-21T01:59:00.002+08:00

Today is a boring day. :(
I slept till noon and I woke up chatting with Ed, poh yin last but not least peeky!!
Hehe, later I'll be meeting my super girl, Chacha in the noon and Peeky in the late noon. :)
Wonder will I be able to meet my sweetest boy?

Eh ya eh ya ~
Life is getting boring as days past by.
But spending time with my sweetest boy is the best to let my time fly.
I love you. :*

I love you, I do!

2011-01-20T04:18:00.002+08:00

My hyper mood is gone now..
Suddenly I thought about I'm still not schooling & I'm jobless? Oh...
How could this happen to me?
It's okay, I'm taking a break of my life till new year is over.
You're the best boyfriend I ever have.
I'm trying to hold you right by my side, existence of you makes my life worthwhile even knowing that I'm not living up to the life of a human teenager.
I hope I can be a normal teenager, but I can't.
I'm not afraid of anything as long as you're with me, everything seems so fine on the surface with me when I'm with you. I feel as though I'm perfect, but I know very well I'm not. I'm so lousy, I fail my life and I fail myself. You remember, as long as you're with me I'll be happy.

Chutima the S.U.P.E.R G.I.R.L!

2011-01-20T00:57:00.002+08:00

CHUTIMA A.K.A CHACHA THE SUPER GIRL THAT I WANT!

Oh, I'm feeling super hyper now!
Don't know why..
Maybe it's because I'm talking to my favorite girl Chacha!
Hehehe, I think that she's my super girl, and I like her. ^-^

My favorite girl, wanna be my best friend?

Over tired ~

2011-01-13T23:03:00.003+08:00

Is it because I'm too tired therefore my brain is lagging?
I'd be slipping things out of my hand? And I don't digest as fast as before?
Damn shit! It's okay, tomorrow gonna be friday!
I'm off on saturday and sunday! ^-^

Loving me like before?

2011-01-13T01:52:00.003+08:00

I work hard and play hard at the same time!
Ee Eng Influential Laughter Presents! HAHAHAHA!
The shop ladies next to me are simply I.D.I.O.T.S.
They said that I'm mad cuz I kept on laughing. But...
Shit their dumb ass pea brain, they're idiots!
They laugh along with me not knowing the reason.
How dumb can that be?
I enjoyed punching and talking back to my boss. Hehe. :D
I'm happy and content with my life. Once again, it's still the same.

I'm tired!

Goodnight, I'm sleeping!
I work to support myself and lighten my grandma's burden.
I realised how hard earn money come by now.
It's not easy to earn money. I'm going to persevere and work till I apply for my private O's.
I'm gonna work hard. I love to study, yes I do.
I will excel for sure.

Tired!

2011-01-12T02:15:00.001+08:00

Why why why? I wanna cry.
Can anybody lend me your shoulder please?
I'm tired, really. :(

Too afraid

2011-01-11T01:55:00.002+08:00

This is shit feelings! All this feelings only cause me to spoil this wonderful relationship I'm having right now. Think again, is it as wonderful as it seems?
So much contradiction indeed. Feeling so different now. Everything seems to be changing. Even I, myself is changing, so does my relationship?

It is mind over matters.
As long as I don't mind, it does not matter to me.

All I know is that I love you. Do you know?

:O

2011-01-09T03:26:00.001+08:00

i am different from other guy
i dont like to go to the girl and said
please dont go baby
i beg you
or kneel down etc
first point ": we no marry
2nd point : i beg i dont know will it be in vain anot
3th point : she leave she got her own reason she be happier
4th point : learn to respect a girl decision
5th point : smile to her and said i love you for the last time even if you suffer yourself for a few weeks / days /years or even longer
6th point : love someone is setting them free when you see them happier you will also be able to pull through any obstacle coming your way in the future
7th point : just hold on to the memories you once have will be enough , at least love before better then nothing
8th point : be strong , face the fact get over it that life , i am not the worst out there ;p
9th point : i am fine liao xD

Regrets

2011-01-04T02:11:00.003+08:00

Almost everybody is complaining about going to school...
I hope I would be attend school later, but I can't.
I'm concern about my future, I really do.
I'm afraid without education I won't be able to excel.
I don't wish to be look down upon.
I don't wish to let people say behind my back that being so young and I'm not schooling.
I'm afraid that I became a disgrace to my grandma.
I'm afraid to get out of my house and let my neighbour realising that why am I not going to school and start to ask my grandma.
I don't wish to spend everyday of my life playing.
I want to attend school later..
I ...

Wish That I Could Attend School.

Insomnia

2011-01-02T05:56:00.006+08:00

I'm mentally tired...
What I really want I don't even know...
I don't feel as secure as before...
I can't feel your love any further...
I feel that maybe it's because time is running out...
That's why all these feelings occur...

I had a lousy friend.

2010-12-28T18:59:00.001+08:00

If you came by here. I'd like to let you know that I might not be important to you any longer. But I don't wish to be your friend anymore.
N.E.V.E.R.

When it turns to reality

2010-12-26T02:22:00.006+08:00

Of all people, I found you and have you as my boyfriend.
Of all people, I chose you.
Of all people, I take you as my real man.
Of all people, I give my love to you.
Of all people, I choose to see the best side of you.
Of all people, I hope to see you every single day.
Of all people, I'm glad to let you see the ugliest side of me.
Of all people, I will shower my love on you.
Of all people, I expect things differently of you.
Of all people, I need your concern more.
Of all people, I need you to hold my hands.
Of all people, I need you to praise me.
Of all people, I miss you more.
Of all people, I try to change for you.
Of all people, I try and learn to get a grip of my foul attitude. (always fail. -_-)
Of all people, I choose to spend every single minute thinking of you.
Of all people, you make me get to feel how great is love.
Of all people, I can cry in front of you without feigning strong.
Of all people, I allow you to slap my face. (joking way of slapping.)
Of all people, I hope to see you right beside me once I wake up from my sleep.
Of all people, I am yours.
Of all people, I hope to see your smile more.
Of all people.....
Of all people,

You're my one and only.

Not so easy as it seems.

2010-12-25T04:03:00.002+08:00

I know I'm so hard to please.

Reason: You're someone that's so special therefore it's not as easy for you to please me like how others do.
I'm starting to get sensitive to everything you do and say. Because I'm so sensitive to it, therefore I get angry so easily. I know you don't understand some decision that I've made. To you, it seems ridiculous. It may seems to you that I'm being nonsensical, but I actually mean something behind every reason. As days goes by, my love for you grew stronger and its not as easy as the time where I can just easily let you go like how I did before. I know, one day you will go for a new one like what you've said. Even that I know, I won't be mentally prepared cuz I can't.

Worst

2010-12-18T04:41:00.002+08:00

I hate feeling of holding my tears till I reach home. I hate this feeling! I'm not going to sec 5, I can't take my O level. I'm so sorry, not to my parents but to my dearest Mr Lai. I'm sorry that I disappoint you. Mr Lai, your guidance and care towards me will never be forgotten. I hope to laugh with you again.

My Dear

2010-12-15T02:44:00.003+08:00

My dear, I'm up at this hour. But I'd be heading to bed after posting this up.

I'd like to tell you that I love you like what I always did all the time. In the past, telling a person I love you often really makes me feel that it's something that a person saying it for the sake of it. But, I just can't stop emphasizing how much I love you. Every single day, I'd just have the urge to confess how much I love you. I'm so obsessed with you. I've no idea what will become of me if you would just leave me someday. Earlier, I said something that it might gave you a thinking that you might not be as important as it seems like how I always told you that you are so important to me. Sorry to say that "Without you, I also wouldn't die." I'm sorry. Actually it's true that I will not die, but I told you before about I will be feeling if you'd to leave isn't it? Sometimes I said things just to have a win in the situation. I treasure this relationship a lot. Everyday, I just want to meet up with you, to spend some time with you. It's true that even if you just meet me up for 10mins, I will still be happy. Cuz it's something I look forward to every night upon meeting you up the very next day. Each and every time I didn't get to meet you, I will feel so upset and depress. I understand sometimes that we just can't meet due to some valid reasons. It's okay, it's alright. How I wish I could place you in my mind and my heart, so that you will know what I'm thinking all day long and how much you meant to me. It can never happen, time would prove. Goodnight, see you later. ((:

When would be the day you will be randomly calling me up and just saying " I love you."
You told me to wait, I've been waiting.

Thank you dear !

2010-12-14T21:29:00.003+08:00

Thank you dear for making a trip to lan just to complete Love Party and attain Daisy ring with me. I'm very touched. ((:
Sorry for the lag and can't perfect that causes the Love Party to failed once. ):
Because it's too sudden. But nevermind, we still attain it. Cheers ~
Muacks :-*

Nobody understand

2010-12-13T18:13:00.002+08:00

Why why why? Why did you say that I used you and say that I treat you like a toy friend. What was that for? I thank you for being there when I'm in trouble. I appreciate it. I treat you like my best buds. But now you tell me that I'm treating you like a toy friend? Fine, I treated you as a toy friend now and even before. I hope you're satisfied with my answer now.

You're just a toy friend to me ! ((:

You make me feel as if that I'm really such a lousy friend. I gave you a impression like you are just like a toy to me.

Missing you

2010-12-12T06:08:00.002+08:00

Dear, I'm missing you.
I miss you so much that I don't know what I can do but to keep looking at the couple memo.
So torturing. I hope you will be with me now.

Grandma :/

2010-12-12T01:47:00.002+08:00

Grandma ~

Seriously, I've got a unreasonable grandma. The worst grandma I've ever encountered. She's so different from other people's grandma. She cauculates everything. The clothes she helped me wash, money ($$$), electricity, water & the way I spoke to her. Obviously I dislike talking to her, she's very very very rude. No matter how soft I tried. Not more than 2 sentence of conversation, I can't help to start yelling at her. Money ($$$), she said that I love money ($$$). (:
In this world, who don't love money ($$)? Money ($$) is part an parcel of life. If I don't need money ($$), I wouldn't need to put up with her nonsense. She got so jealous when I speak nicely to other people, she would always say, "ask her be your grandma la.". Come on, how I wish the other people can be my grandma. My grandma always boast about how much she loves me and dote on me. She always told me what she has sacrifice for me. I admit, is true that without her, I wouldn't be able to be here posting this and I will be having a worst life. But, never forget that I will definitely provide for her when I am older. So what's the point of cauculating so much of materials with me now. If I can feed myself, I swear I wouldn't ask her for a single cent. Also my fault, I'm lazy to work. After all, she's my one and only grandma. I can't live without her too. Fine, life sucks. I admit! Money money money ($$)! I pray so hard that I'd be rich!
Mummy, I miss you. I hope to have you in the house disturbing me. Doing clean house chores. Only washes clothes in the night. Never fail to clean the house no matter what happen. Always giving face to me in public by not scolding me. Mummy, I miss every single thing of you. I hope you're here with me, to hear my troubles, to console me. Mummy, when I look into the mirror every single day. Looking at the big pair of beautiful eyes inherited from you, I miss you terribly.

Happily ever after

2010-12-08T04:47:00.002+08:00

FAILED TWICE MARRIAGE!
Today 12.30 I received a call from Messy shop asking me down to work. I reported at 1.30. Awesome! This is a very tiring job. I stood for almost the whole day. Fuck that girl whom act like a slut. She's really a slut in my eyes. I've no idea how to describe what she did that disgust me so much okay. Come and take a look if you want.
Dear came and fetch me after my work, I met him just for awhile and I am content about it. Okay, I'm tired. I want to sleep. I'm married! Married in audition with Dear. This is so LOL. Yah lo, know LOL still say. Of course must say, LotsOfLove ma. Why cannot say? Shut up Ee Eng! Go to sleep. Yes ma'am, going. Why are you still here? I don't know leh. KAN! You want sleep anot? KANINAH! Turning in now!
KANINAH vs KAN. :*

Although Dear, you're not the one whom really married me in audi. But you've got your reasons. And if you would to marry me by yourself, we wouldn't even be married by now. I appreciate and love this ring a lot. It's a very meaningful gift for me. I hope to see you today. ^^

A good girl (:

2010-12-07T06:04:00.002+08:00

Happy One Month, Dear!

I post one day later due to some issue happened yesterday.

Firstly, I want to apologise to Dear again for all the nonsense you've been putting up with me. It must have been hard on you that you actually told me that you can't stand my nonsense anymore. Seriously, I was afraid that you'd leave me after telling me that you put up with all my nonsense cause of your love for me. After reading that msg, really made me feel so guilty. I thought you'd just leave me. But you didn't, you gave me a chance.

After that incident till noon I did not recieve any text from you, I thought you was still angry with me. I texted you and you replied. Thereafter, your reply was like quite cold. But I understand that why you'd react this way. It was okay after awhile and you told me that you got debar. I am so upset cuz I know that you can't get money from your mother. I, myself do not have money to help you too. But it's our one month, I wouldn't want you to be upset at the end of the day. I want you to be happy, so I went to bought a card & a rose for you and hoping to give you a surprise that will make you feel much better.

On my way going to find you, I was so afraid to face you. Or thinking that would you give me a cold shoulder upon seeing me. Fortunately, you didn't. Showing me the paper of you being debar you look upset, but I hope my rose lighten you up abit. And I thought that you wouldn't treat me the same like before cuz you said you will be hard. You held my hand, and you didn't change your phone wallpaper. Cutest character 'D' you got from my blog too. You're still nice as nice to me as ever.

Dear, I have learned my mistakes and I won't repeat it again. Thanks for giving me a chance and still loving me. The only thing I ask of you is to let me be the one that you will share your laughter, sadness, problems and everything else. I will change to be a better girlfriend for you. I'd assure that this sort of problems will end as of yesterday and it won't repeat itself anymore. Let's put this aside and move on.

I love you, Dear. muaaaacks! :*

Feel so different.

2010-11-30T02:59:00.002+08:00

Feel so different, too paranoid.
If I don't care, something must be wrong.
Sometimes I think what's the point of thinking so much.
What can I get for thinking so much?
I won't say I will stop thinking cuz it's impossible for me to do so.
I'm the most lousiest girl you met, I know.
But can't help it, I'm just this lousy.

What's wrong with myself!?

2010-11-28T01:35:00.002+08:00

I can't stop myself from thinking!

Why I feel so moody? ):

I hate it, I hate this feeling. I'm tired, but I can't sleep.

What the fuck is wrong!?

I felt being abandon.

It belongs to you

2010-11-27T22:35:00.002+08:00

And I love you, Dear.

Anadora`Bigcowcow~

2010-11-27T14:44:00.001+08:00

Anadora Love Bigcowcow~

So disgrace?

2010-11-24T01:27:00.002+08:00

Would it be a disgrace for you if I want you to make me your wife?

Okay, random! (:

Just thought of asking this.

Today I went out with Deane, Angie, Ting, Dama, Mama and last but not least the little baby boy Lele! Happy day ~

In the evening went to meet Dear at his mum's shop.

I love Daniel, Daniel love me. Bye.

Only girl in the world ~

2010-11-23T01:35:00.002+08:00

The few hours I spent with you are worth the thousand hours I spend without you.

Do you still love her?

2010-11-21T02:29:00.002+08:00

Shouldn't have look at it. It only makes myself upset. >:

Darling told me: She cannot get the person she wanna get. So, you must envy her. Not the other way round.

True enough, but somehow it still affects me a little...

Missing you

2010-11-20T02:46:00.003+08:00

Do you know ...

I'm missing you very badly. But I don't wish to keep telling you the same things all over again, cuz it will be irritating after some time. Randomly calling you earlier asking you to sing a song for me it's because I really miss you so much. Without you by my side at that moment in time, by having you singing a song for me ease my mind and knowing that you're still there for the very least, not physically. At least let me feel secure here. Having you by my side, I felt so secure & happy. When you're not with me, my mind starts to think alot. And it's all Negative thoughts. It's not that I don't trust you or whatsoever, nothing of that sort. Is just that I'm so afraid that you'll leave me sitting there like what he did. I'm so afraid. I'd always put up a hack-care attitude when I'm with you, but each and everytime I do care for you. Every single time when you leave for home, I'd start to feel empty, so empty. I hope you will be my side every single moment. But I know very well, you can't. And I don't demand for more, as long as each day I'd be able to see you and recieve your hugs I will be contented. I love the way you disturb me every single day. Like I've told you before, I felt kind of annoyed but I've no idea why am I still laughing even when I'm feeling annoyed. Bickering with me is one of the cutest thing you can ever do. You somehow will always end up with "k la, sorry la Deaaar." One of the greatest things of you- your eyes, the way you looked into my eyes and give me a blink makes me so happy. I love the blinky eyes of your's my Dear. Every night when I close my eyes, I will see you blinking at me like how you always do. And knowing that I needs attention, you'll never fail to take notice of me when I'm out with you. You'll not leave me alone walking behind, even if you do, once you realise that you've left me behind. You'll be coming for me straight away. You will not doubt every single thing I told you, and accept it. You're so understanding towards me, that I appreciate it so much. For the last of all that I want to say of you my Dear, you made me fell so in love with you and I miss you.

Listening to your voice

2010-11-19T23:43:00.002+08:00

I just want to listen to your voice, what's wrong with that?

If you don't feel like singing, it's okay.

DANIEEEEEEEEEEL!

2010-11-19T00:59:00.002+08:00

I think my this new blogskin looks so cool ! Agree? *nodnod*
Today suppose to go for training, but I didn't go for it. Cuz I'm sick. >:
But nevermind, in the late noon I'm feeling okay already. I didn't go for school graduation day too. That's not important actually. It's that I didn't meet MeiQi`Dearest ! That's the important part. Nevermind, I will meet her next week. *winks*
In the evening, met ChengWai & Dear at Bugis to eat. Before Dear came, me & ChengWai got screen ! Frist time, it was funny though.
After Dear came, we put up a show for ChengWai. Wtf, Nicole. :D
Dear know, I know, Public don't know.
I've got myself probation from my Dear for a month. I'm happy to get this probation though. Hehe. My blog song is dedicated to him, my Sweetheart. Muacks! :*

You know I wouldn't leave you, my love ~

Happy Birthday to TongShan!

2010-11-16T07:14:00.002+08:00

Eheheh ! Look what's the time now & I'm not sleeping yet. Awwwww! >:

Can't get to sleep ne. Anyway just now midnight I met Dear. YAY!! Feel like a happy only. But only for awhile & Dear send me home. After that came home & played Audi to level up. Finally I level-ed up. I failed once okay. Dear got caught for getting out of house so late at night. And he can't get to sleep. But he was too tired he fell asleep. ://

After that he got up & went to study. I text him & no reply. Dear, don't tell me you fell asleep! Arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! :@

And I've got a cute son now, Brian.

I love Daniel Loh !

A great day out with Darling!

2010-11-13T10:20:00.003+08:00

Yesterday I went out with Darling`Jacq. It was a great day out with heeeeeeer! (",)
I accompanied her to visit Ahsong, after that we went to Bugis eat. And we went to Tampinese Kr to look for freinds. Played Audi for one hour. Break away from that fucking fam ~BOL~. I hate this lj fam, they don't respond in fam chat ! I'm joining ~BOL instead. :>
So, I've deleted all your texts in my phone, I'll never forget you. My love for you waver till I met Daniel. I love Daniel !

A fight with my Aunt.

2010-11-11T15:04:00.002+08:00

Yesterday was a very bad day! I fought wtih my Aunty. >:
She used chair and threw at me, 4 chairs okay! But never hit till my face luh, only my hand. She's really a bitch, real bitch! After that I cried cuz I felt 'UNFAIR'. My mother & grandmother didn't even beat me like this, who is she to do this to me?
But nevermind, I cry like a baby. And dear came to find me. He never bath & rush down to find me. Sweet right? Then dear look at me cry & kpkb. :D
After that, we went to find dear's mother, sat for awhile & off to Suntec!
Then blah blah blah ~
Go home watch tv as usual ! Now going bath & off to meet my dear !

A nice catch

2010-11-09T06:44:00.002+08:00

Hi, I guess I've made the right choice to be with my boyfriend Daniel`BigCowCow~
People told me to last long with him, and said that he was a nice boy. (:
Now is 6:46am in the morning. So yesterday I didn't met dear. My reason was damn epic! (Y)
While I'm texting with dear i laid on my bed as I was charging my phone. Waiting for his reply, I fell asleep & slept till 10 plus! Epicccccccc! But nevermind, after that we watch tv together! Dear asked me to act like Koala. You guys wouldn't understand if you have not watch TaiWan Long Juan Feng on weekdays, 11pm @ channel 8. Watch it, it's nice! I only started watching at the episode of 286. I don't even know what's the content of it, yesterday it was the 2nd time I've watch it. :DD

DANIEEEEEEEEEEEL'S !

Can't bear to quit !

2010-11-07T22:23:00.003+08:00

My dear likes to say 'lol!!'. (:
What a nice starting line to use. HAHA! (Y)
Anyway dear told me something very funny today.
If any of you were to have the intention of quitting smoking, what will be the reason that you wouldn't be able to quit?
Standard answer: Addicted to it ~
But dear's reason wasn't this, it was.
His answer: I can't bear to quit !
So cute righhhhhhhhhhhhhhhht!? Its's not an addiction, but a relation within a cigg!
Oh ya! One more thing... ! Just now dear was so tired & he asked for a nap that last only for 10mins. When he slept, he look so cute! Somehow like he's blowing bubble. ^-^
And we pk in audition, I lost to dear. I blame it on the keyboard ~ ! ):
Last but not least, Cheng Wai is back in Singapore! He came to find us and *slack at Coffee shop for awhile.
Okay, I had a great day with dear & i miss him so much ! :*

Daniel Big Cow Cow's

2010-11-06T22:53:00.003+08:00

Danieeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeel!

Wow-oh-wow! I changed my blogskin out of boredness. It looks so kiddy, but it seems cute to me. I'm just trying to praise myself ~

The weather is so cold now, so cooling.

To Daniel my baby,

Hello, baby!

I'm going to see you later.

I miss you alot alot okay! See you later at *11.10am !

*11.10am, you know, I know. But public don't know right!

Heep heep hooraaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay!

6thOfNovember, Daniel belongs to me !

Substitution!

2010-10-23T21:48:00.003+08:00

Yeah yeah yeah. I'm so confused. At one point, I think I'm ready to be your substitution, another minute I can't bring myself to do so. Cuz it's like 'Why must I do this?'. What do I see in you, why would I fall for you? Afterall, I know very well it wouldn't last. No matter what happen, ALJJ will always stays a part of me.

I FELT BEING CHEAT!

Tutu's !

2010-10-22T16:15:00.001+08:00

Tutu, I miss you.
Come back soooooooooooooooooon!
I need you so much. (:

Scared ~

2010-10-03T22:13:00.003+08:00

This week is really a bad week for me. ):
Now, I'm afraid of tomorrow's paper. But I've got no-one to talk to. I'm afraid to fail, to go Ite or worst to worst Retain~ Sigh, but what can I do? I really can't bring myself to study. I told my Aunty can I retain of I couldn't make it to Sec 5, she said yeah. Think again, what's the point? Now, I'm feeling tired, I just feel like sleeping. Somehow, I'm afraid to see tomorrow now. I hope I'll be able to fall sick tomorrow, give me sometime to study. I know, even giving me how many more days. I still won't be able to bring myself to study. But, let fate decides.
Yesterday, I heard your voice, I'm happy. Once again, I'm sad, cuz I'm not the one talking to you. Hearing from your voice, you sounded happy. That's great. (:
Once again, I miss you, and I'm still loving you like it was the first time.
ALJJ, 14th.

Why I become like that?

2010-09-11T05:35:00.002+08:00

Today I misses you so much, I can't hang on any longer. :/
I gave you a call, hoping you'll sound better then before.
But should have expected, you didn't. And you just said bye, hoping to gang up my call.
Demote me from ~NoMERCY~ is a very sad thing for me.
So in the end, I chose to leave ~NoMERCY~. ):
~NoMERCY~, I miss you too. Now I'm not inside anymore.
I deleted you from Bl too. Cause i know 3 more days to go, you'll be getting married.
And I don't wish to know that you're married. I don't want. Because I'd always check your information. A, I miss you so badly. Do you even miss me a single bit? Even a bit?
I hope I'll continue to be this strong! (Y)
SAN, i hope you'll be a better couple then I do. (:
A actually bothers to go to the same room as you without playing club.
I'm so envy of you. Marry & chiong well.
I hope you'll be able to attain the ring that he wants.

It hurts so much ~

2010-09-03T23:33:00.002+08:00

I called you & said things that are so harsh, but that's what I really have been longing to say.
But as usual, I spoilt your day everytime I call you. You said that you don't care, I know deep down you do care at least a little. The way you replied to every questions to me, it seems that you hope you could explain yourself. you just can't bring yourself to, because of your strong inner self. It's okay. Sometimes when you love or hate something, you wouldn't need to say it out so that everybody would know. Maybe right now, you're hurting too? I do spare a thoguht for you. And I believe you'll analyze the things that I've said to you earlier on. I hung up on you without saying bye, because I want to tell you that I don't wish to bid goodbye to you. Telling me that Ns is a valid reason for us to be seperated, telling me that we first got together trying out etc.. I don't take to too seriously for all this as I treat it as you said it out of rashness, maybe you might be saying the truth, or maybe, I just wish to lie to myself. Currently, it's too early to see whether am I sincere about my waiting for you. As time goes by, you'll know. And if I really did wait for 2 years, and you're not back. There's nothing that I could say, or rather i admit defeat to God's will. You made me grow a little faster then usual ~ But I'm still loving you.

Console told me this.

2010-09-02T20:05:00.002+08:00

Console: Silly girl, if you really thank me.. You MUST be strong. Remember how I got through this path alone ? If you think no one is there for you, but in actual fact.. We're always there for you. We may seem not as close, but one things for sure. ...Do call us okay ? It's his lost to lose you console, he may be your first & last romance. But I believe, as you grow older, you might find a better man. The choice is in your hands, either you bow yourself to fate or you adjust it yourself. It all depends on you, maybe you've tried tremendously hard, but if he did not return to your side, at least, you've tried your best. You're pretty, beautiful, smart, diligent, you can find a better man outside. You may find my words harsh, you can feel infuriated as I write this.. But time will tell. Like wise Jolene said, time offers the best. Right now, he wants you to concentrate well on your studies, prove it to him that you can do it. Look how much time & efforts I've wasted on Kenneth. I neglected my studies excessive, but major exams happens once in a year, once you did very badly, it's gone. You can take private, but how long ? You're gonna waste your youth & education. So study hard now okay ? I believe you can, & you can. Don't give up, I've observe that you're a very bright girl in your studies, you can do, but you're just lazy to do & think. Don't! Don't ever do that, shave off a year, suffer now, enjoy later. Okay console ? Can you promise me what I've enumerate above ? ♥

Me: Yes, of course I can do what you've enumerated above. But, seriously, If i really do wait for 2 years. Will he be back? This is the biggest question mark I've been pondering through out the day.

My Boyfriend. (:

2010-08-31T15:23:00.002+08:00

Here I am to post, to update my blog again. :>
I'm really growing emotionally, being more matual in my heart.
Growing slowly, and my love for my Boyfriend has grown deeper too.
Whatever it may be, I will not leave my Boyfriend, for a very simple reason.
N level is coming, Ee Eng will pass man! HAHA!

Because you're different,

2010-08-28T15:52:00.002+08:00

Actually I have already lost interest in blogging as things just ain't right to me now. ):
Every single day, I'm afraid that you will leave me. Not even a moment I can stop this thinking. My heart started palpipating whenever I spoke to you, you didn't reply or whatsoever~ It does not feel good. In the past, if these happens to me. I'd have just ran far far away. Now, no matter how hard it is, I still want to stay. Because it's just for a very simple reason that everyone knows. Every little things I do seems wrong to you, and sometimes I, myself don't even know what I'm wrong at. But I said before, if I had done something that upsets you, it really must be something wrong. But I am content that you're still with me, I am happy (:
These little things can't be compared with having you.

Just loving you makes me happy.

2010-08-16T23:46:00.002+08:00

Just came to update my blog.
This morning Maths paper Two was hard, I wonder will N level be this hard?
Nothing much to say.
I swear I hate you both.
Don't suck people's blood.
You'll only make yourselves suffer isn't?
Why be such a hero when you're actually timid?

Don't be sucha Fool,

You'll only make people laugh at you both.

Nobody will stand by you Two side,

Because simply, You're both SUCK!

Thank you baby. (:

2010-08-15T14:08:00.006+08:00

Yesterday went to Orchard with Baby, Georgina, YuNing Bernard and last but not least MingHui. :>
We had a greaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaat time. We went to watch movie at Lido, Phua Chu Kang!
It was so humorous, Kang Kang! *Laugh*
After movie Georgina and guys went off. Left me and Baby. :D
We went to walk around and lepak awhile, took pictures for Baby. But to him, not all of it is nice.
After that, I sent Baby homeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

On the way going home, on train was having a great time with Baby.

And that's the best moment of my life, (",)

Baby is so sweet at that moment.

Isn't it's so beautiful?

I can't put into words how happy I felt, but I'm just so happy and touched.

Baby, I love you.

I'll never ever leave you alone.

Happy First Month Baby!

2010-08-14T02:08:00.004+08:00

Happy First Month baby! :D

I will not let you down, baby. (:

2010-08-13T00:53:00.004+08:00

我亲爱, 我不会让您走。我由这个座右铭去。即使您不爱我，我更将举行到您的手。如此，我爱你 .

Argggggggggggggggggghhhhhhhh, it;s been so long since I last felt so stress you know?
The reason I am being stress now is because I can't let my baby down or disappoint him as I told him I will pass my preliminaries. That's why at this hour I'm still up memorising my Social Studies notes. Seriouslyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy, it's really very very hard. >:
Crazeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeh Chicken.

BabyBabyyyyyyyyyyyyyy.

One more day to go and it'll be our

One Month Anniversary!

I'm soooooooooooooooooooooo

Happy now! (:

If Baby were to see this, he will say I'm wasting my time, drag time.

So, I will end this post.

I have memorised almost 2 essays already.

1 more to go and I will get to sleep!

I'm missing Baby. ):

I will not be meeting him today, I will catch up on my studies first.

So Baby tonight, we will have a good night sleep. (:

Mr Lee Beng Huat !

2010-08-11T21:15:00.002+08:00

So today I was late for school, but there's an advantage as I was Sec 4. :>
I'm having my first prelim paper` English paper 1 & 2, so I was let off by the security guard.
Meaning? No LRC!
Paper was pretty good.
After my paper end,

I WENT TO LOOK FOR MR LEE,

and he was like so shock to see my outside office.

I asked him whether he would like to help me with my Maths, and he agreed.

Thank you Mr Lee, you're so kind.

And what I learn from him is never gonna be taught by my Maths teacher.

Lousy Arsehole, you'll only make me faaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaail!

So yeah, now I'm back home, after posting I'll be off to revise my Maths work & prepare for tomorrow Chinese paper! :D

Alrighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhht, I miss baby alot alot.

Baby spin HappyBox yesterday & got 100 hearts for free! :>

Hoooooooooraaaaaaaayyyyyyyy!

I'm STUDYING!

2010-08-10T21:17:00.005+08:00

Overdued-Pictureeeeeeees!

So, today I met Baby first at Lavender.

After that met up with Georgina, Bernard & MingHui. :>

So, we went to Eunos to eat, and i ate like a glutton as I was famished while wating for Georgina they all. ):

They said I look like a Hungry Ghost!

Crazeeeeeeeeeeeeh!

Anyhow say hor, now SEVEN MONTH already.

So, Basically.

Baby wants me to study, so after this post I'm gonna bathe & study.

Baby, I just want say that I really love you alot.

And, I'll wait for you even you're admitted to Ns.

Believe me. (:

Off to STUDYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!

Missing Babyyyyyyy!

2010-08-10T13:37:00.003+08:00

Okay basically, I'm just posting a short post as after this I'm gonna bathe & head out to meet Georgina, Bernard, Boon Khong, Germaine & last but not least Babyyyyyyy! :>

Maybe after that we'll be going YuNing's house to meet her too?

I miss Ms Soh Yu Ning!

Haha, that was funnehhhhhhhhhhhhh!

Anyway, I've got something about Audition to comment about. >:

Why hearts are so hard to get man!

2400, I guess me & Baby haven't yet hit 1200!

Stuuuuuuuuuuuuupid!

Okay, I'm going to bathe now.

I swear hur, I'm not going to stone anymore.

Bye Bye!

Happy Birthday YuNing!

2010-08-09T13:52:00.007+08:00

Firstly,

Happy Birthday to Soh Yu Ning!

Yu Ning is finally 16 (:

Yesterday I enjoyed myself.

And I guess it's somehow the first time I got a chance to get together with my classmates!

Haha, this goes to show how unfriendly I am. *Fake.

Okay! I'm going to prepare now & meet my Baby, Georgina & Bernard! (Y)

AUDITION'S

Yesterday Baby & I got our First couple clothes!

Nice Nice!

I'm loving it.

Woohooo~

2400 hearts, we're coming!

Work together, Baby

2010-08-02T21:42:00.005+08:00

Baby, I will try to give you the love you have not felt since the day I am with you.

I will change the littlest thing as long as I could.

I want you to know that I seriously love you. This Relationship I'm having with you right now is not a play-play issue like my ex's. I will try to show you the love that you yearn for and make this Relationship LAST. I want it to last as long as possible. (:

WE WILL WORK TOGETHER & MAKE IT LAST ALRIGHT?

I'll never do it again.

2010-08-01T23:22:00.003+08:00

I'm so happy today!

I swear I will not do the SAME mistake again. >:

Once bitten, Twice shy.

Thank you baby for buying me TAMAGOTCHI!

We name it as Papaya & Yaya.

ALSON'S

Never act on impulse

2010-08-01T01:21:00.004+08:00

This is the consequence of being Impulsive.

Barrier Between Me & You

2010-07-29T21:51:00.001+08:00

So who's Creating the Barrier?

First Love Party!

2010-07-27T23:35:00.003+08:00

First Love Party with Baby, & now we've come to Daisy Ring if I'm not wrong. :>

I'm soooooooooooooooooooo Happy.

I invited AHNEL & DongNanXiBei and they came.

From what I know, DongNanXiBei told me that I'm the first whom invite him to such event! Haha, I'm soooooooo Honoured!

Baby, sorry that I didn't gave you my password from the start & makes you feel that I've no trust in you. But that's not true you know. Sorry for not completing the Couple Memo's job too. It should be my job. :/ I'm Sorry & I Love You.

Baby, i miss you.

2010-07-27T09:11:00.002+08:00

This is a late post, supposedly to be posted yesterday.

Yesterday after school I went to Chloevelle house to accompany her to take money as we're going to meet ♥Baby at Ang Mo Kio. After that me & Chloevelle took cab to Whoampo to take money from her friend. After that we took a bus to Toa Payoh Interchange & changed to train to Ang Mo Kio. There after, we waited for ♥Baby.

We Watch The Blood Pledge!

It's horrifying man. :/

I Love You, Alson.

Automatic !

2010-07-24T22:31:00.005+08:00

don't think too much (:

2010-07-23T21:47:00.003+08:00

Today was quite a bad day for me. ):

I feel so insecure, it feels like anytime you will be leaving me. I hate this kind of feelings. I wanted to act like nothing's happening, act like i can't feel the changes in you... But, I can't. You told me your reason was that you're thinking about your friend's issue, but even if you really did. Why did you treat me this way? It seems I did something wrong that pissed you off that resulted this. I hope you will be back to normal soon, my dear.

---xAHJUNx3- & Anadora

2010-07-22T20:44:00.012+08:00

Firstly,

Thanks to Azura for helping with my new blogskin. It's been ages since last changed. And you did an Awesome job!
Second, Anadora is married to ---xAHJUNx3- !
Third, Thank you Georgina. I love you!

ohhh girl. (:

2010-07-22T18:53:00.000+08:00

I LOVE EE ENG,

love, Rara.

Audition Spoil Relations

2010-07-21T22:06:00.002+08:00

Please don't let Audi spoil our relationship. To me, it's ain't worth it. And I can say, to choose Audi & you. I'll quit Audi if that's one of the reason that will cause us to quarrel.

14th (:

2010-07-20T11:49:00.004+08:00

I'm happy to have you by my side.

Ee Eng

First meeting with Kiyomi, Grace & Joyce!

Dedicated to brother Cynthia

Happy 8 months, dear!

My precious hair!

Lee Poh Yin

Girls being born naive ?

I love you Ee Eng, so much

Irony!

Missing a part of me

* A *

Dances of love~

Happy 7 months baby!

Pack Of Lies

Happy birthday, Ee Eng. *v*

Dearest ~

Affordable,

Four months ago ~

One sided love,

You are the cutest boyfriend i ever had

Fatigue

Let me off

Worried Sick

All comes to goodbye

I'm sorry

Idiotic !

Hantaro!

Greatest Disappointment!

IS IT TRUE?!?

Depress ~

It's best to be friends ~

I don't mind ~

AhLian!

Unlucky!

Common Responses!

Fly ~

Love ^^ :*

I love you, I do!

Chutima the S.U.P.E.R G.I.R.L!

Over tired ~

Loving me like before?

Tired!

Too afraid

:O

Regrets

Insomnia

I had a lousy friend.

When it turns to reality

Not so easy as it seems.

Worst

My Dear

Thank you dear !

Nobody understand

Missing you

Grandma :/

Happily ever after

A good girl (:

Feel so different.

What's wrong with myself!?

It belongs to you

Anadora`Bigcowcow~

So disgrace?

Only girl in the world ~

Do you still love her?

Missing you

Listening to your voice

DANIEEEEEEEEEEL!

Happy Birthday to TongShan!

A great day out with Darling!

A fight with my Aunt.

A nice catch

Can't bear to quit !

Daniel Big Cow Cow's

Substitution!

Tutu's !

Scared ~

Why I become like that?

It hurts so much ~

Console told me this.

My Boyfriend. (:

Happy birthday, Ee Eng. v